Partaaay

Wow, last night was AWSOME! Actually all of yesturday was great! Had photography first thing, wasn't too bad. Finished school at 10.30 =) But hung around cos Heydn had law next then at 12 we hung out, fried rice, the usual. Then crap it was suddenly 2.45 and I still needed to get home and to ric before 3.30 to meet Jo! Not gunna happen, but heydn and i bused to mine then to ric. I was very late =( And felt so bad but we hung and ate. Then off to Hannahs. Haha there weren't many people to begin with so Jo and I went for a crazy walk. We were SOOO hyper hehe running around like crazy xD. It must of seemed pretty dodg how Jo adn i kept disapearing. Then as more people came, started drinking. Wow, I thought I'd been drunk before but WOAHH nope, last night I ended up totally wasted. And now I feel like shit, but serves me right. I wasn't even planning on having more then 1 drink but haha 6 shots and a few glasses later, didn't work out that way. Apparently i am INCREDIBLY annoying drunk xD I giggle. A LOT. Hehehe. And daniel fell or something into my leg and it hurts like hell and il probably not be able to dance on monday =(. And i had gluten so as well as a headache this morning i felt sicker then i would have otherwise. But it was deff an Awsome night! So much fun :D Haha Georgia's bf put me in bed at like 1 so i was asleep hours before the others but i needed it lol. Anyway, good night all in all =)

Music music Music

I have my 5 star songs on my media player playing randomly and am annoyed that every single song that seems to be playing is how im feeling at the moment arghh. Do you find that? Like for example if someone had broken up with you then all that seems to play is sad break up songs? (not that thats whats happened xD)
'Where would we be now baby, if we'd found each other first?'

'Were you right, was I wrong? Were you weak was I strong? Yeah both of us broken, caught in a moment. We lived and we laughed and we hurt and we joked, Yeah. Were the planets all aligned when you looked into my eyes? And just like that, chemicals react, the chemicals react.'

'To you babe I can't stay away. Get up, go down then we go on around, its wrong but I can't stay, I can't stay away.'

3 freaking songs in a row.

Why?

Why do we still like and care about the people that hurt us? Everybody else is like No, they arn't worth it, forget about them! But you don't, you can't. Sometimes I wish you could, ughh.

Tell Me Lies

Cause I don't wanna know
If I kissed your lips for the last time
Please don't say if it's so
Tell my heart it's not goodbye
And do this one thing for me
Make up some stupid story tonight
it's alright, keep your truth and tell me lies


Ugh ugh ugh today was terrible, except for seeing the people I saw! Which ended up being A lot!
Anyways, don't really wanna babble on.

Everything

'Coz everything everything makes me think of you
And everything everything that I wanna do
I know you can see now when you look at me
I want you, so tell me now
Do you? Do you? Want me too?'

Wow, so this song is by The Veronicas, no idea where it came from, I've never heard it before but it was in my media player! And I LOOOOVE it so much :D Mm and it also kinda expresses what I'm feeling at the moment. Hmm except I know the answer to that question in it. Gahh love is waay too complicated.

Tell me everything will be alright and I'll dream a dream of you tonight

What do you hate waiting for?
I'm waiting for someone to make a decision. Its an incredibly hard decision for him. I know what I want him to do but its not up to me and I don't know what would be the best decision for him. I can't stay away, we've tried that, twice, its doesn't work.
At the beginning of today I didn't know what I wanted. But now I know and i desperatly desperatly want him to know and I hope he does. I think he does. But I also know what she wants and so one way or another someones going to get hurt. Wow a love triangle thingie crazy huh?? Didn't think this would happen to me!
But it has and we all just have to deal with it, wait and see.

Eeek

So how does this whole, being friends, taking things slow thing work? Cos its not as simple as I thought it would b...I am so confused.
But all I know is I am really happy at the moment =) And I enjoyed today a lot hehe

MTV Video Music Awards

By the way, check this out =) Though I am so annoyed Beyonce has SOO many nominations!

Best Female Video Of The Year:

Katy Perry Hot N Cold
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Kelly Clarkson "My Life Would Suck Without You"
Lady Gaga "Poker Face"
P!nk "So What"
Taylor Swift "You Belong With Me"

Best Male Video
Eminem "We Made You"
Jay-Z "D.O.A. (Death of Auto-Tune)"
Kanye West "Love Lockdown"
Ne-Yo "Miss Independent"
T.I. ft Rihanna "Live Your Life"

Best Hip Hop Video Of The Year
Asher Roth"I Love College"
Eminem "We Made You"
Flo Rida "Right Round"
Jay-Z "D.O.A. (Death of Auto-Tune)"
Kanye West "Love Lockdown"

Best Pop Video
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Womanizer"
Cobra Starship "Good Girls Go Bad (Featuring Leighton Meester)"
Lady Gaga "Poker Face"
Wisin & Yandel "Abusadora"

Best Rock Video
Coldplay "Viva La Vida"
Fall Out Boy "I Don't Care"
Green Day "21 Guns"
Kings of Leon "Use Somebody"
Paramore "Decode"

Video Of The Year
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Womanizer"
Kanye West "Love Lockdown"
Eminem "We Made You"
Lady Gaga "Poker Face"

Breakthrough Video
Anjulie "Boom"
Bat For Lashes "Daniel"
Chairlift "Evident Utensil"
Cold War Kids "I've Seen Enough"
Death Cab for Cutie "Grapevine Fires"
Gnarls Barkley "Who's Gonna Save My Soul"
Major Lazer "Hold The Line"
Matt And Kim "Lessons Learned"
Passion Pit "The Reeling"
Yeah Yeah Yeahs "Heads Will Roll"

Best Art Direction
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Circus"
Coldplay "Viva La Vida"
Gnarls Barkley "Who's Gonna Save My Soul"
Lady Gaga "Paparazzi"

Best Choreography
A.R. Rahman & Pussycat Dolls f/ Nicole Scherzinger "Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny)"
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Circus"
Ciara ft Justin Timberlake "Love Sex Magic"
Kristinia DeBarge "Goodbye"

Best Cinematography
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Circus"
Coldplay "Viva La Vida"
Green Day "21 Guns"
Lady Gaga "Paparazzi"

Best Direction
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Circus"
Cobra Starship "Good Girls Go Bad (Featuring Leighton Meester)"
Green Day "21 Guns"
Lady Gaga "Paparazzi"

Best Editing
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Britney Spears "Circus"
Coldplay"Viva La Vida"
Lady Gaga "Paparazzi"
Miley Cyrus "7 Things"

Best Special Effects
Beyoncé "Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)"
Eminem "We Made You"
Gnarls Barkley "Who's Gonna Save My Soul"
Kanye West ft Mr. Hudson "Paranoid"
Lady Gaga "Paparazzi"

Best New Artist
3Oh!3 "Don't Trust Me"
Asher Roth "I Love College"
Drake "Best I Ever Had"
Kid Cudi "Day N' Nite"
Lady Gaga "Poker Face"

Happy Happy Happy

Hehehe I am on a like permanent high today, pretty damn happy lol =). Hmm Guess why? I can't wait, but I am also Really really nervous, but it should be exciting. And if it doesn't work out, o well, I'll move on xD.
Anyway, the only down side is I can't sleep, I never have trouble sleeping nowdays yet last night it took me forevver to get to sleep and this morning I woke at 6.20am =( And I didn't even have school till 10!!
Hmm but I don't mind to much lol =)

Its more than obvious :p

I always hype things up waay to much, telling people and stuff, so this time I'm going to shut up even though i really don't want to. WILL POWER Kristin! Anyways all I'll say is I'm a happy chappy and hope all this works out, however its meant to.
Anyways I just needed to vent, because chatting on msn im just like WANT TO TEll but no, I won't!

x