'...it knocks you down...'

I'm so over my head and its crazy. What I want more then anything, and what I think is the right thing to do at the moment are two totally different things and I don't know what to do! If I decide what I really want, nobody, just about none of my friends would support my decision, I know it. But does that make it wrong? They arn't in my shoes, they don't know how I'm feeling. Then of corse I'm only part of the equation. What does he want? Its hard to understand, because he seems to be putting what he thinks is best for me first, but I really don't know if thats best for me arghh everything is just so confusing!
In short, do you follow your heart, or your mind?

Formal Formal Formal and stuff xD

Wow, stuff has been crazy! It was the formal on Saturday =) OMG it was SOOO much fun! Better then I expected! First off got ready, got my hair done at 12, but got there and shes like 'k so u want a wash and cut right' I'm like WHAT NOOOO, formal style! Eeek but she wasn't too busy so she curled my hair and stuff, i looved how it looked :D. Headed to Aimee's at 6, everybody there looked amazing! And then got a limo to Addington, it was really cool, got heaps of photos before the formal. Then everybody got breath tested except me! It was wierd, he said I could just go on through lol I must look very inocent xD. And yeah, partied all night lol. There was pretty good music, the dj was really nice, food was goood (cept ben got food poisoning cos he ate the fish when it got cold =() And yeah, mint az night!
Afterwards was AWSOME! Hehe to begin with I thought it was going to be crap cos I only knew Aimee and Kimbo but it turned out to be lots of fun, haha probably just cos I loosened up with a few drinks, i didn't have much though and didn't get wasted like a few people *cought Aimee cough*. But it was a lot of fun :D
There was one really crappy part of the night, a slow dance, lots of couples, I got upset and I didn't wanna draw attention so just carried on as usual, but it was hard. I thought I was over the whole situation but that point showed me I'm really really not. Which sucks, I want to be in total control of my heart and emotions but sometimes you can't be. I just want to say I'm over him, it doesn't mean anything. But I can't and it drives me mental!! So since then its all been a bit up and down, but thats life.
School isn't that great, pretty much my 2 best Hagley mates don't like hanging out together anymore so I'm smack bang in the middle. It really sux, each lunch i have to choose who I hang with and I just want to hang with both of them!! Its not fair on me but theres nothing I can do about it!
But other then that things are good! Cept lots of people go away in like just over a week? France people at mgs AND Cambodia people at Hagley, maths isn't going to be as fun without Aimee! But they are all going to have an incredible time which will be great :D
But yeah, thats whats going on xD