'If we're gunna lose this thing, we're going out in style!'

SO, my blog, is pretty damn boring!

I'm thinking I should kinda change that, I mean who wants to read about my life?

MUSIC - now THAT is something more interesting! I need to find new music, actually I always need to find new music, anyone got any sugestions about good bands/songs/artists?

I am absolutly IN LOVE with Danger Radio!! (espec their song 'Your Kind (speak to me)

Why arn't these kind of bands big in NZ? Like White Tie Affair and stuff? Cos they are AMAZING! And catchy!

Annnd cool ridiculously long song titles!

'Allow me to introduce myself...Mr. Right' with awsome lyrics!

Lets get this party started...Cos she was thinking Mr. Right, I was thinking right NOW!

On new music though Nelly Furtado's new single is really nice! Its in Spanish? 'Manos Al Aire' and and Pixie Lott is going to be BIG! Not probably as big as Esmee but, still good! There needs to be more good rock music out at the moment cos other then Green Day there is NOTHHING! Just dance, hip hop and pop/rock stuff. Omg Jason Mraz's single 'I'm Yours' has just about made a Billboard Top 100 RECORD! He's at his 64th week in the singles chart and if he makes it to 70 weeks its a new record! NOOO, man I HATE that song!

I could talk about music for ever, but I won't xD

Omg new Harry Potter movie out in like a week or so? I CAN'T WAIT! Hmm anyone know how good Transformers is? I dunno wether to see it or not! Lol theres a movie coming out soon called Sorority Row and it looks so shit! And stars someone from the Hills so yeah, gonna be GREAT acting!

Ooo heres a comic, I love these soo much!

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Happy.ish

Well im a lot better then I've been the last few days =) Which is GREAT cos I don't like being sad.
So I wasn't exactly upset about what I thought I was, which probably doesn't make much sense but it does to me xD It was more so something that happened that made me remember some stuff that happened a few yrs ago...but I talked to Cindy who is great in these kind of situations, and Hanisi emailed me and now im happy happy happy, i think c:

So yeah pretty much
ONE MORE CLASS TILL HOLIDAYS!!! Maths ugh yaaay xD Nah its not 2 bad with Rocio and Aimee hehe
xxx

We set our own limitations.

Wow, screw my last post. Cos this has been the shittiest (thats a word) of days in a looong time. I don't like being sad, but stuffs happened. Stuff I can't even begin to explain. And it wasn't really till today that things hit me.
Meh, so today was a terrible terrible day, just like the weekend. I can't put into words whats happened, even to my close friends...I don't want to talk to people, which is odd cos I usually tell my friends EVERYTHING, well not everything, but you know what I mean.
Cindy asked me a millions times today what was wrong, I didn't tell her anything, I just left the class. I told Aimee part of it, but couldn't explain anything Really. Lol one person went all day talking to me and didn't even realise I was upset, take a guess who! I don't want to go to school, but I don't want to stay at home, I hate faking it, but I hate being by myself, I like to be surrounded by people so I can just merge into the background. Which would of been easy at the beginning of this term, but I have friends, good friends at school now so its kind of difficult. Arghhh. I can't win.
I just want to be happy and forget everything thats happened, is that to much to ask?

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Life should be HAPPY. What good comes out of being depressed? So YOU! Be happy happy happy cos lifes too short kk

I love Jo cos shes super awesome. and yeah she is waay better at guitar hero than me. i say that of my own free will.

omg i think i love julia. seriously. i hope she doesnt read this. crap.
thats what my last blog was about...

Hmm my little rant xD

You know when, you've had a lot going on over the period of a few months or so and its all just gone by so quick, then you take a look back and you think 'Did I really like how I handled that?' 'Is my head/heart really in the right place?' or even 'Do I really like how I've turned out?' because of things that have been going on. Hmm these are some of the questions that have been going through my mind. A lot of my days seem to merge into one another with not much purpose, I've kind of lost exactly what I'd planned to do this year, but thats ok, I have over 6 months to get back on track and sort my life out, if that is possible.
Then there are people who you absolutly love having as your friends and you are so grateful yet you wonder if they really care about you. Even if I complain about someone, I do love them, all my friends are AMAZING people but a few of them who said they had 2 keep in touch with me and I've TRIED but they really don't seem to care anymore. Why not? Why why WHY??? ARGH it makes me so angry, they go on I dont make an effort yet IM always the one trying to organise things. I have to txt first, i have to make the plans, I have to talk first on facebook etc, Why the hell don't they care anymore!!
Hmm this blog didn't turn out the way I planned it to, but I am just so annoyed! If some people want to stay friends, they really need to start Acting like they want 2 be friends!

I <3 Julia, Jo, Heather, Siobhan and Roseanna, you guys are AMAZING! And I just want you guys to know how much I appreciate you all and how fantastic you are :D xx

Be an INDIVIDUAL!

There are people who would rather do what everybody else is doing then be an individual. Then there are some just as crazy people who won't do something because its cool and is what other people are doing. Did I explain that right? Then there are a lot of people who DO just do whatever they want which is good! But these people who won't do something just because its cool or won't wear something because its in fashion are just annoying me. Shouldn't you do or wear something because YOU WANT TO? Who cares wether it is cool or whatever or not. NOT doing something because its cool is just ridiculous! I was just remembering something that happened at Easter Camp when a few of the guys got their nails painted (xD) and then pretty much all of the guys got their nails painted. Then a bit later going over to the big top I noticed one of the guys wasn't wearing the nail polish anymore. When I asked why he said it was because too many people did it and it became the cool thing to do or something like that. What the heck? Just do it because you want to! Argh I have a few friends who are like that. They think they are all awsome and individual when really they are just being stupid!