Hmm my little rant xD

You know when, you've had a lot going on over the period of a few months or so and its all just gone by so quick, then you take a look back and you think 'Did I really like how I handled that?' 'Is my head/heart really in the right place?' or even 'Do I really like how I've turned out?' because of things that have been going on. Hmm these are some of the questions that have been going through my mind. A lot of my days seem to merge into one another with not much purpose, I've kind of lost exactly what I'd planned to do this year, but thats ok, I have over 6 months to get back on track and sort my life out, if that is possible.
Then there are people who you absolutly love having as your friends and you are so grateful yet you wonder if they really care about you. Even if I complain about someone, I do love them, all my friends are AMAZING people but a few of them who said they had 2 keep in touch with me and I've TRIED but they really don't seem to care anymore. Why not? Why why WHY??? ARGH it makes me so angry, they go on I dont make an effort yet IM always the one trying to organise things. I have to txt first, i have to make the plans, I have to talk first on facebook etc, Why the hell don't they care anymore!!
Hmm this blog didn't turn out the way I planned it to, but I am just so annoyed! If some people want to stay friends, they really need to start Acting like they want 2 be friends!

I <3 Julia, Jo, Heather, Siobhan and Roseanna, you guys are AMAZING! And I just want you guys to know how much I appreciate you all and how fantastic you are :D xx

Be an INDIVIDUAL!

There are people who would rather do what everybody else is doing then be an individual. Then there are some just as crazy people who won't do something because its cool and is what other people are doing. Did I explain that right? Then there are a lot of people who DO just do whatever they want which is good! But these people who won't do something just because its cool or won't wear something because its in fashion are just annoying me. Shouldn't you do or wear something because YOU WANT TO? Who cares wether it is cool or whatever or not. NOT doing something because its cool is just ridiculous! I was just remembering something that happened at Easter Camp when a few of the guys got their nails painted (xD) and then pretty much all of the guys got their nails painted. Then a bit later going over to the big top I noticed one of the guys wasn't wearing the nail polish anymore. When I asked why he said it was because too many people did it and it became the cool thing to do or something like that. What the heck? Just do it because you want to! Argh I have a few friends who are like that. They think they are all awsome and individual when really they are just being stupid!

Arghhh just don't judge!

I am Annoyed! I've been reading twitter updates and one of the people I follow is Perez Hilton. He had a link and he said 'Christians are coming out against Miley Cyrus and Heidi Montag.' and this link was from a Christian website (Christian Post) and I did not like it at all!! Though I am no fan of Miley or Heidi, when Perez asked, 'do you believe in homosexual marriage?' Miley said that Jesus's greatest commandment is to love and she would love Perez whether he was gay or not, Heidi said we should love our neighbour and we are all equal! Good on them!! I believe it is not our place to judge people who are gay or whatever!! This Christian website completely disagreed with Miley and Heidi and are pretty much saying they aren't Christian. Now I'm not saying what I believe about these 'celebrities' being Christians or not, I am angry at how this website just said what they believe is wrong and saying that gay marrige is wrong, full stop, it is not our place to judge!
Arghhh.

Wow

Where have I gone? I feel like I'm turning into someone else, or they are turning into me. Ughh.
Eeek 3rd dance concert 2nyt! Wish me luck! Mums watching 2nyt so il probably make a lot of mistakes xD.
Anyway, can't wait till EC, I think...

Exciiiited!

Omg, tonight I'm performing, I'm nervous, but excited!! Hehe its gunna b so much fun!
But today defiantly hasn't been a great day. A really close family friend from church passed away yesterday, Arthur, its so sad, I feel so sorry for his wife =( And mum was really good friends with him. Hmm the funeral is meant to be on Thurs, so um School, Funeral, Dance Concert AND Easter Camp, gosh its going to be a crazy day.
I feel like i've been going to Hagley for like ever, yano, just feels so normal, its not exciting being at a new school anymore xD But i miss everyone at mgs sooo much! I hope 2 catch up lots with ppl in the holidays!! Its just really hard to!
Be my bad boy
be my man
be my weekend lover
But don't be my friend!
Hehe an AWESOME song by Cascada, i loooves it!
Anyway, I don't really have much to write, I'm happy and sad, excited and nervous, confused but content
Pretty much xx

'Can't you make me feel alive'

I feel quite, alone at the moment.

'Becoming a bitch is not what I got into this for'

Ok so I have decided I am totally sick and tired of all these pathetic little bitchy fights people seem to be having, Like serously we are 16!!!!!! GROW UP!
Maybe its because I'm not surrounding by all these MGS people every day so I have a different view on things and can see how pathetic it is. And Hagley has made me grow up a bit.
I know I used to have these stupid little fights but I have realised how pathetic they are. If someone says something that annoys you or does something to piss you TELL THEM, dont bitch about it with other people. It all just ends up in this vicious bitchy cycle.
ARGHH so thats whats annoying me today.
Goodbye.