Boooring

Im so over posting blogs, there are things ive typed which I wish I hadn't. I don't have much 2 say anyway because if i was to talk about what I've been doing, people would stop me, they've done it before and they'll do it again.
So im not going 2 say anything anymore =]
And nobody will ever find out, though they might notice a change.
mwhahaha
heheheh
Love You all, Goodbye,
xxxxx

'Straitjacket Feeling'

Lots to say, don't really know where to start. So not gunna say much
Im losing some friends and they're friends I've had for a long time
And so im sad.
Rawrrr and angry, cos I don't know what I did wrong!!

hahah

do u know whats funny?
Paris Hilton's new single.
It seems they got someone new to sing this song for her compared to her last album cos 'paris' sounds completly different.
anyway
xxx

'If your too nice you loose'

I miss Hanisi lots =(
Wanna talk to her.
Arghhhhh.
xxxx

Yaaay

Heya, things are A LOT better than last week and i'm very happy.
My birthday is in 2 weeks yay :D
Im giving up on guys
who needs them!
And friends who just want to be your friend when it suits them, I have a few of those.
And people trying to control things that have nothing to do with them.
Pretty much =)

'Show me how to lie, your getting better every time'

Worst Day

Today was one of the most terribilest terrible days in a long time.
Dont fucking sit right next to me, talking to someone else about something im 'not allowed to find out about' and say to my face im not allowed to know because it could hurt me or whatever, but then keep talking about it to someone else
TWICE IN TWO HOURS.
For fuck sake that pissed me off.
And who it was about didn't even mind telling me anyway, even though it may of hurt, just a little.
At least I have Emily, Caitlin & Fliss to go to if people are fucking me off.

I hope nobody reads this, I don't think anyone does anyway thank goodness, but whatever.

CANT WAIT TO LEAVE AND GO TO HAGLEY
Gosh im glad im leaving.

Goal: To stop spreading secrets, cos even though I didn't today, I know sometimes I do just like everyone else, but spreading private stuff hurts and if i stop, well thats one less person gossiping.

Hmm that was my vent.

I think

I think im losing her.
-Have to stop trying to solve peoples problems because now I'm losing a best mate.
ARGHHH

'Sorry I couldnt be your angel'

Love this song 'Sorry that I couldn't wear your halo, halo, halo. Sorry that I couldn't be your angel.' Its so sweet but sad!!
Anyway im happy with things at the moment. Except I know lots of my friends arn't, which is sad =(. Though I feel like nobody really wants to talk to me about things going on. There are other people they can talk to now so they don't tell me much at all. Just have to put up with it, just wierd as I'm used to helping people with things, though I suppose peoples problems are just so huge now, it wouldn't work anyway.
I love all you guys, every single one of my friends and I hope everyone is doing ok <3333
Im dreading school, but can't WAIT to get to Hagley, I'm SO excited :D


Love x

'Be patient with me, babe I'm just tryin' to make my way (oh)
I'm not a superhero Sorry i couldn't save the day (ah)
Believe me when i say

That i'm sorry i couldn't wear your Halo, halo, halo, halo
Sorry i couldn't be your Angel, angel, angel, angel
I'm sorry i couldn't wear your Halo, halo, halo, halo,
oh no I was with him but i guess i wasn't able
I'm sorry i couldn't wear your halo Halo, halo'

Ugh

If there is one thing that makes you feel fat, its spending a day around lots of thin, tiny girls at the Irish Dance Nationals.
Argh.

'Keeps Getting Better'

I'm feeling somthing I havnt felt in a looong time (That wasnt meant 2 sound sick by the way) It makes me very happy, but also a bit lost on confused...I don't know what to do. And I don't know who to talk to...I want to talk to someone different! A new perspective on things would be really nice.

I have no more braces YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY, got them off like 3 days ago, that was pretty exciting!

Hagley! Is also something im excited about...don't really have a reason not to go unless that something that I hope happens does happen. But since people may read my blog if they are veeeery bored then I cant say what that something is!! Anyway so Hagley, yay, fresh start! But to go I need to be more outgoing, i have been so boring lately I need to become more friendly and stuff, so hopefully! :)
So pretty much, Holidays now YAAAY.
xxxx

Rawwwr

So today, I was very pissed off at some people.
Some people are so selfish.
ARGHHHHH
>;(

Tis cooold

Well I haven't posted in a loong time..I dunno why, just haven't got round to it. Stuff isn't that exciting, House Singing yesterday and Shack WON :D, why do people think house singing is stupid? I like watching the small groups,they're awesome! And Scott did Phil Collins so it was like yaaay! People know who he is thanks to that gorilla!
Anyway soo got my appendix out a few wks ago, that was pretty extreme, it'd really weird cos it ws the wk b4 house singing i was in hospital 2 yrs ago! Random. Mmm the laughing gas mask smelt soooo good heheh bubblegum.
This is just me babbling on a bit.
Mum and I went 2 this Greek restaurant last night, omg it was sooooo good!!!!! I had this filo wrap thing and mmm it was delicious! And pita bread with spreads! and Dark choc mouse with berry sorbet.
I feel so out of it at school, I'm always soo tired, But miss gander is sooo nice and shes talking 2 all my teachers about exams for me to say that I dont have a lot of energy and so i just have to try and if i dont do 2 good 'tis ok! Cos I was stressing out heaaaps.
Anyways going 2 Northlands with Jo soon yaaaay!!!
xxx

WTF

What kind of asshole rapper calls a song 'booty meat'
thats just ughhh so stupid
>;(
That annoys me

Calm down people!!

I am so so so so glad I don't do drama!! People are STRESSING out soooo much. And they are getting reallly grumpy to! Serously, friends who are in drama have been so grumpy over the last week, people who are usually very calm, its amusing in a wierd way...anyway I hope everything goes well for Jo and stuff tonight :D:D.
Anyone know the reasons behind bleeding noses? Im getting them EVERY day now and thats bad because im also low on iron rawwwr, Theres always something wrong with me! Stupid bloudy body.
I'm actually quite happy about stuff other then that ^^^ AUS IN 1 WEEK I am SOOOOOOOO excited :D:D Holiday, Theme parks, seeing heather, shopping, relaxing and yummy food yaaaaaaay. 7 days!!!!
I need new music! But I cant find any, all the mainstream stuff is crap at the moment and certain songs *cough Take a Bow* are being played waaaay 2 much! How do i find decent new music??

hehehe

Im' a happy
But exausted
I've been sick, now im better, but don't have any energy still.
BUT BUT 2 WKS AND A FEW DAYS TILL AUS YAAAAAAAAAAY
Im so excited!! I can't wait :D :D and Heather is excited 2!!!!!!
I miss her!!
This post is rather pointless as I have nothing much to say...
Going 2 church soon, shall be pretty exciting xD Sorting out our 'youth' Because yano, my church is just FULL of young people hahah.
Anyway, CPIT thing tomorrow will hopefully be good!! But im worried about the whole sorting out our own fittness or whatever cos I am like dead fitness wise as I don't have the energy...not that im complaining bwt not excercising:D just I don't want to embarrass myself!!!! Rawwr so annoyed I didnt get photography!!!
xxxx
I wanna go SLEEP!!!

Apricots

I hate change =(
I miss the people my friends were...
I dont want these new people who say they are my friends....
And that was a generalisation im not saying everyones changed.
Its just everyone growing up blah blah, i know, but i hate it =(
And I feel so lonely...even though i have lots of people who i know love me.
Its just all these Secrets and things i cant tell people
And all the things people cant tell me
It makes a friendship seem worthless.
Friends should be people you can tell anything to....
>;(
Im so confused!
And SO sick of school...I dont have the energy
My iron ruins everything
and this being sick, being ok, being sick everyday....
I just about passed out last night with julia and shonaugh...that was creepy...
Anyway thats about it!

To Happy? Nooo!

I am feeling FANTASTIC.
How could a short 20minutes make me feel so Happy and Great? =)
I feel like its closed the situation...it makes me feel like i don't have to worry about anything to do with him again...and i am so so so so glad after all this time things are ok! I wouldn't of been suprised if he didn't speak to me again, but he did! And more than 2 words. He could of just ignored me...I wouldn't of really minded, but i am SO happy he talked, and I talked
OMG I havn't been this happy in so long :D :D :D
i feel fantastic
I hope everyone else is feeling good =) I just wanna share my love around xD
Im feeling so random....
hehehehe =)

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I have been SO slack over the long weekend, its been a fantastic weekend, but I have eaten so much and excercised so little EEEEK, I feel gross.
What did i have on Friday?
No breakfast, because i had 2 fast before i had a blood test
2nd last day of the entertainment book so mum and i had lunch out - Burger King
Then went to the airport 2 see my Auntie cos she'd just got back from Rome (xD) - had cake and iced chocolate (saw Siobhan leaving for Queenstown! hehe)
Then felt sick later, so didnt have dinner...
Then Jo came over and we were watching movies so we just had junk food
WORST food in a day ive ever had lol
I was a bit better the next few days
But i feel like a PIG >;(
But a happy pig, because my weekend was AWSOME
Yeah i dont really know what else 2 say....
School tomorrow NOOOO!

hehehe

I shall go and watch Dot..that should cheer me up =)

Silly Silly Girl...

I did a VERY stupid thing at lunchtime...I know I shouldn't of...but I did, it was something I promised myself I would stop doing and i hadnt done it since our 1st Christian Focus day...
I think Julia knows what I did...well shes the only 1 who knows I used 2 do it...she knows what I'm like afterwards. Anyway I hope I didn't come across as 2 depressed at lunch today because of that. Hmm Blairs the only 1 who knows my blog so did i seem normal Blair? MEHH IM SO STUPID! Im very angry at myself, I don't like telling everyone 'yeah i'm fine!' because I hate lying so much...but I can't tell people, because 1. I don't want 2 tell, because they'll think im stupid or something and 2. if i tell anyone I'd come across as attention seeking, which i deffiantly don't want,even though i dont see how its attention seeking, but other people think that so WHATEVER... RAWWWR Im so angry.
Home alone...Dunno what to do...
I should phone Annika! I havnt talked to her in ages...
I should excercise...havn't been doing enough
I should do homework...but I really don't want to...
Lots of things I should do, but I dont want 2 do anything!
I want 2 sleep and not, not wake up...but just sleep until i can sort things out... get my head straight...But I can't. (if that made any sense i dont know!)

Hmm Yeahh Well thats all!

Secrets...

How many times have people said 'k i'll tell you, but don't tell anyone!' or something along those lines! A LOT! Why do we tell people things we know we shouldnt? We all do it. We think we are telling our friends a secret, then they go and tell someone and tell them not to tell anyone...then that person does the same thing. Certain types of secrets people keep, but usually if its something about somebody they go and tell a mate...Its crazy! I feel like I can't safely say things to friends, because then everybody will find out, thats not how friendships are meant to work is it? No. I've heard so many things recently about certain people that I know people shouldn't of told me. Then you want 2 do something about it....but you can't because nobody is meant to know you know. Its confusing. I don't like secrets...

:S

I feel ughh silly sitting here in front of the computer. why? i should be exercising, but I cant... cos i hurt my leg >;(. annnd ive pigged out all afternoon because there was a Gluten Free expo on! I couldnt believe how many people were there...apparently there'd been over 2000 people there! Its such a common disease now! Crazzy stuff. Anyway, that unhealthy food makes me feel worse.
and im not that happy and i dont know why! I should be happy. What the fuck do i have 2 be unhappy about?!

Hmmm maybe not the best time to blog...maybe later =)
I shall just go and calm myself down by listening to some music...

Blogger? Hmm Maybe

I am new to this...I don't really have any idea what I'm doing. But I saw other peoples blogs and decided I might as well make one. Not guaranteeing that I will use this much or it will be interesting. I'm going to try though, its so much easier writing down things then saying.

So my day? It was interesting...Failed biblical studies xD It seems like lots did though so yeah, I reallly dont wanna go 2 the resit tomorrow, I don't know wether its compulsory or not? but i really really dont wanna go...I could just 'forget'.

I think ive figured out all this silly friendship problems Ive been having with people...Ive learnt that I just need 2 b more easy going about things, not stress out so much. Cos im getting stress headaches again, partly cos of friends and partly cos of school work, thats nobody elses fault, just mine, but yeah i need to sort that out!

Anyways, Annabelles birthday tomrrow! I need to get her something...Im not sure what though... ice skating with her and others on Saturday... shall be fun, though ive actually never ice skated before, so that could be interesting...
Then its Blairs birthday, then its Hannahs! and we are actually really broke, i dont know what I'll do for presents...but i shall sort something out :D

Anyway, I think thats enough babbling for one day, I'ma try and see what i can do with my profile and stuff now, then Ima go to bed, i am sooo tired!
xxx