Silly Silly Girl...

I did a VERY stupid thing at lunchtime...I know I shouldn't of...but I did, it was something I promised myself I would stop doing and i hadnt done it since our 1st Christian Focus day...
I think Julia knows what I did...well shes the only 1 who knows I used 2 do it...she knows what I'm like afterwards. Anyway I hope I didn't come across as 2 depressed at lunch today because of that. Hmm Blairs the only 1 who knows my blog so did i seem normal Blair? MEHH IM SO STUPID! Im very angry at myself, I don't like telling everyone 'yeah i'm fine!' because I hate lying so much...but I can't tell people, because 1. I don't want 2 tell, because they'll think im stupid or something and 2. if i tell anyone I'd come across as attention seeking, which i deffiantly don't want,even though i dont see how its attention seeking, but other people think that so WHATEVER... RAWWWR Im so angry.
Home alone...Dunno what to do...
I should phone Annika! I havnt talked to her in ages...
I should excercise...havn't been doing enough
I should do homework...but I really don't want to...
Lots of things I should do, but I dont want 2 do anything!
I want 2 sleep and not, not wake up...but just sleep until i can sort things out... get my head straight...But I can't. (if that made any sense i dont know!)

Hmm Yeahh Well thats all!