hehehe

I shall go and watch Dot..that should cheer me up =)

Silly Silly Girl...

I did a VERY stupid thing at lunchtime...I know I shouldn't of...but I did, it was something I promised myself I would stop doing and i hadnt done it since our 1st Christian Focus day...
I think Julia knows what I did...well shes the only 1 who knows I used 2 do it...she knows what I'm like afterwards. Anyway I hope I didn't come across as 2 depressed at lunch today because of that. Hmm Blairs the only 1 who knows my blog so did i seem normal Blair? MEHH IM SO STUPID! Im very angry at myself, I don't like telling everyone 'yeah i'm fine!' because I hate lying so much...but I can't tell people, because 1. I don't want 2 tell, because they'll think im stupid or something and 2. if i tell anyone I'd come across as attention seeking, which i deffiantly don't want,even though i dont see how its attention seeking, but other people think that so WHATEVER... RAWWWR Im so angry.
Home alone...Dunno what to do...
I should phone Annika! I havnt talked to her in ages...
I should excercise...havn't been doing enough
I should do homework...but I really don't want to...
Lots of things I should do, but I dont want 2 do anything!
I want 2 sleep and not, not wake up...but just sleep until i can sort things out... get my head straight...But I can't. (if that made any sense i dont know!)

Hmm Yeahh Well thats all!

Secrets...

How many times have people said 'k i'll tell you, but don't tell anyone!' or something along those lines! A LOT! Why do we tell people things we know we shouldnt? We all do it. We think we are telling our friends a secret, then they go and tell someone and tell them not to tell anyone...then that person does the same thing. Certain types of secrets people keep, but usually if its something about somebody they go and tell a mate...Its crazy! I feel like I can't safely say things to friends, because then everybody will find out, thats not how friendships are meant to work is it? No. I've heard so many things recently about certain people that I know people shouldn't of told me. Then you want 2 do something about it....but you can't because nobody is meant to know you know. Its confusing. I don't like secrets...

:S

I feel ughh silly sitting here in front of the computer. why? i should be exercising, but I cant... cos i hurt my leg >;(. annnd ive pigged out all afternoon because there was a Gluten Free expo on! I couldnt believe how many people were there...apparently there'd been over 2000 people there! Its such a common disease now! Crazzy stuff. Anyway, that unhealthy food makes me feel worse.
and im not that happy and i dont know why! I should be happy. What the fuck do i have 2 be unhappy about?!

Hmmm maybe not the best time to blog...maybe later =)
I shall just go and calm myself down by listening to some music...

Blogger? Hmm Maybe

I am new to this...I don't really have any idea what I'm doing. But I saw other peoples blogs and decided I might as well make one. Not guaranteeing that I will use this much or it will be interesting. I'm going to try though, its so much easier writing down things then saying.

So my day? It was interesting...Failed biblical studies xD It seems like lots did though so yeah, I reallly dont wanna go 2 the resit tomorrow, I don't know wether its compulsory or not? but i really really dont wanna go...I could just 'forget'.

I think ive figured out all this silly friendship problems Ive been having with people...Ive learnt that I just need 2 b more easy going about things, not stress out so much. Cos im getting stress headaches again, partly cos of friends and partly cos of school work, thats nobody elses fault, just mine, but yeah i need to sort that out!

Anyways, Annabelles birthday tomrrow! I need to get her something...Im not sure what though... ice skating with her and others on Saturday... shall be fun, though ive actually never ice skated before, so that could be interesting...
Then its Blairs birthday, then its Hannahs! and we are actually really broke, i dont know what I'll do for presents...but i shall sort something out :D

Anyway, I think thats enough babbling for one day, I'ma try and see what i can do with my profile and stuff now, then Ima go to bed, i am sooo tired!
xxx