'Dandelion'

I LOVE songs that are stories, they are probably my favourite songs to listen to over and over, this is one of my favourites, the song is really beautiful. But I'm not going to tell you who sings it otheriwse trust me, you would LAUGH.

'I saw him on a Friday outside some run down saloon
He was cryin over someone that he felt left much too soon
I said, hey boy don't you cry tonight
Let me take you out on this town
He looked at me and smiled as one last tear splashed off the ground
With half a wink he asked me what are you some kind of freak
I told him no, I guess I just feel your vibe is kinda deep
The moon hung over soho
And I counted 16 stars
I pointed at the brightest one and said now that one's ours

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

He just might be poison
But I took him to my roof top
I said are you afraid of heights,
He said no I am not
I said hey boy don't you lie to me, tell me everything you feel
We danced around in circles,
He said I think we found something real

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

Down in union square
I saw him walking all alone
I walked a little slower just so I'd remain unknown
He met someone on seventeenth and he knew her all too well
My little piece of heaven has a secret he won't tell
With half a smile he took her hand
And then they walked away
I realized I wouldn't see my boy after today

Fell in love with a dandelion
And he's all I ever had
At first he looked so sweet
But in the end he did so bad

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought she was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on
And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

'Can I be the only hope for you?'

Life is gooood! Ahh you have no idea how nice it is to just be lying on the couch playing around on my laptop. Absolute bliss after a loong day. Sometimes I don't get enough time to myself and I think it just drives me a bit nutty xD. But Heydn is entertained playing a game on his computer and Zay has finally gone to sleep so now its ME time. Zay is going through an incredibly needy phase, he wants attention ALL the time, so I don't get anything done around the house, but o well, I shouldn't complain, I love giving him lots of attention :D. Loving liveing in a house again :) a flat reaaally doesn't do it for me, I like lots of space and hate being cramped!Thinking I might have a house-warming/new years party , I should probably sort that out...
Anyway Ima go grab some chocolate and that shall equal a perfect night!

Mehh

I wrote a whole load of stuff that was probably much too honest and more deep then i've said to anyone in months. But I can't publish that. I need to hide, I just dont feel comfortable telling anyone anything meaningful anymore. I love my son, he is the light of my life. You don't need to know anything more about my life.

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Everybody is pulling me in different directions but I don't know what the right way is.I don't even know if there is a right way or just two very very different paths I could take, both with their good and bad points. I know what I want but a lot of people don't think its right :( especially my mum and dad. And i'd always look to mum for advice but what do I do when her opinion is something I don't even believe in doing?

Someone told me to blog, but I don't really know where I'm going with this or what to say at all so maybe I will wait till my mind doesn't feel quite so messed up and jumbled. I am way to lost and confused. :S



"I'm in the dark and you're my light
I'm going blind and you're my sight
I feel alive
You set me free I hold you tight
You're in my heart and I'm the knife
I feel alive
You belong to me
Like I belong to you
I feel alive"

Tomorrow in a bottle

I waited for the day that
Together we can find another way back
But everything we've got at stake
Lets worry about today and put tomorrow in a bottle
If there's some way that we can take back
The wrong that we've created
We can change that
Don't turn your head the other way
You're gunna save today
But tomorrow in a bottle
Let's put tomorrow in a bottle



Tomorrows are scary at the moment. I know that probably doesn't make much sense but with such huge things going on at the moment each day is scarier then the previous. My whole life is scary at the moment, but also very very exciting. I wish I could just tell my friends why this is, but I can't, not yet.
But anyway, I don't want to think of tomorrow, or the day after (not just in this exact day, I mean in general) even though that would be a smart thing to do. I want to only think about today and live for the day. Yes I'm being ignorant, I don't care.

Gahh

Long time no post!
I have been waaaay to busy!
So many parts of life just feel like a chore at the moment, very few things are making me happy. I don't want to sound depressed, cos its not like I can't be happy, when I am with some people I am very very happy. But I hate being alone at all now. Which is reaaally wierd considering I used to LOVE having time to myself. Now I just feel lonely. Doesn't help that someone is angry at me when I didn't even do anything! I'm sick of being accused of things I didn't do.
Relationships are complicated, I dont just mean boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. I mean any in general. I'm really trying to work on my relationship with my mum, cos its not that great at the moment. There are friends who I need to make more of an effort with. Relationships with your boyfriend always need to develop, but I think the relationship I'm struggling with most at the moment is my relationship with God, its really not to great, which I hate but I don't know what to do!
Gah all I really want to do is cuddle up to Heydn, then life seems perfect and I don't have to worry about anything. But I can't do that All the time, I can't hide from my problems like I am. I really need to sort myself out.
I'm a mess to be honest and I don't even understand WHY, my thoughts are just all over the place and so are my feelings and I feel like I can't control anything anymore. Life is just one big blur half the time.
I can't stand being like this.