>:(

You want money now?! Ok cool, we'll just go and get some from the bank, O thats right we don't have any just sitting there. Don't keep asking to look after him and going on about how much you love spending time with him and then ask us for fucking money. But its fine, because other people are actually nice enough to help us out.

Music

I was making an all time favourites playlist and I couldn't cut it down anymore then this, in no particular order, this is really just for me to look back at later on.
Tell me Everything - Just Surrender
Time of you life - Green Day
Carry Out - Justin & Timbaland
Give it to me - Justin, Timbaland and Nelly F
Breakin' Dishes - Rihanna
If you Seek Amy - Britney
Up/Down - Jessica Mauboy
Crush Crush Crush - Paramore
Superman - Eminem
Boring - P!nk
Pass Out - Chris Brown
Most Girls - P!nk
Violent Pornography - System of a Down
Give in to Me - Michael Jackson
What We've Become - Just Surrender
Ignition (Remix - R Kelly
Starstrukk - 3OH!3
Holiday - Green Day
High Hopes in Velvet Ropes - The Cab
Take me on the Floor - The Veronicas
Minority - Green Day
Land of Confusion - Genesis
Ride Wit Me - Nelly
I need a Girl - P.Diddy ft Usher
'Cuz I Can - P!nk
Bad Influence - P!nk
Don't Stop the Music - Rihanna
Just lose it - Eminem
Clap Again - Akon
Say it Right - Nelly Furtado
Te Amo - Rihanna
My Love - Justin Timberlake
The Piano Song - A Cursive Memory
Bounce! - The Cab
Who is it - Michael Jackson
Love the Way you Lie - Eminem & Rihanna.

I've probably missed something, damn a few of those are embarrassing!Mostly from 2008/09, thats when I found so much music I love. The last year has had pretty crap music in my opinion. Haha that P.Diddy song is from when he was called Puff Daddy xD. More Rihanna and Pink then anything, raaandom! I think the Justin songs are probably my all time favourites tho, o and Just Surrender <3

'Dandelion'

I LOVE songs that are stories, they are probably my favourite songs to listen to over and over, this is one of my favourites, the song is really beautiful. But I'm not going to tell you who sings it otheriwse trust me, you would LAUGH.

'I saw him on a Friday outside some run down saloon
He was cryin over someone that he felt left much too soon
I said, hey boy don't you cry tonight
Let me take you out on this town
He looked at me and smiled as one last tear splashed off the ground
With half a wink he asked me what are you some kind of freak
I told him no, I guess I just feel your vibe is kinda deep
The moon hung over soho
And I counted 16 stars
I pointed at the brightest one and said now that one's ours

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

He just might be poison
But I took him to my roof top
I said are you afraid of heights,
He said no I am not
I said hey boy don't you lie to me, tell me everything you feel
We danced around in circles,
He said I think we found something real

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

Down in union square
I saw him walking all alone
I walked a little slower just so I'd remain unknown
He met someone on seventeenth and he knew her all too well
My little piece of heaven has a secret he won't tell
With half a smile he took her hand
And then they walked away
I realized I wouldn't see my boy after today

Fell in love with a dandelion
And he's all I ever had
At first he looked so sweet
But in the end he did so bad

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought she was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on
And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

'Can I be the only hope for you?'

Life is gooood! Ahh you have no idea how nice it is to just be lying on the couch playing around on my laptop. Absolute bliss after a loong day. Sometimes I don't get enough time to myself and I think it just drives me a bit nutty xD. But Heydn is entertained playing a game on his computer and Zay has finally gone to sleep so now its ME time. Zay is going through an incredibly needy phase, he wants attention ALL the time, so I don't get anything done around the house, but o well, I shouldn't complain, I love giving him lots of attention :D. Loving liveing in a house again :) a flat reaaally doesn't do it for me, I like lots of space and hate being cramped!Thinking I might have a house-warming/new years party , I should probably sort that out...
Anyway Ima go grab some chocolate and that shall equal a perfect night!

Mehh

I wrote a whole load of stuff that was probably much too honest and more deep then i've said to anyone in months. But I can't publish that. I need to hide, I just dont feel comfortable telling anyone anything meaningful anymore. I love my son, he is the light of my life. You don't need to know anything more about my life.

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Everybody is pulling me in different directions but I don't know what the right way is.I don't even know if there is a right way or just two very very different paths I could take, both with their good and bad points. I know what I want but a lot of people don't think its right :( especially my mum and dad. And i'd always look to mum for advice but what do I do when her opinion is something I don't even believe in doing?

Someone told me to blog, but I don't really know where I'm going with this or what to say at all so maybe I will wait till my mind doesn't feel quite so messed up and jumbled. I am way to lost and confused. :S



"I'm in the dark and you're my light
I'm going blind and you're my sight
I feel alive
You set me free I hold you tight
You're in my heart and I'm the knife
I feel alive
You belong to me
Like I belong to you
I feel alive"