Two black Cadillacs driving in a slow parade Headlights shining bright in the middle of the day One’s for his wife, The other for the woman who loved him at night Two black Cadillacs meeting for the first time [Chorus] And the preacher said he was a good man And his brother said he was a good friend But the women in the two black veils didn’t bother to cry Bye, Bye Yeah they took turns and put a rose down Threw a handful of dirt into the deep ground He’s not the only one who had a secret to hide Bye bye, bye bye Two black cadillacs, two black cadillacs Two months ago his wife called the number on his phone Turns out he been lying to both of them for oh so long They decided then he’d never get away for doing this to them Two black cadillacs waiting for the ride down, ride down [Chorus] And the preacher said he was a good man And his brother said he was a good friend But the women in the two black veils didn’t bother to cry Bye bye, Bye bye Yeah they took turns and put a rose down Threw a handful of dirt into the deep ground He’s not the only one who had a secret to hide Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye Yeah yeah [Bridge] It was the first time and last time they saw each other face to face They shared a crimson smile and just walked away And let the secret at the grave [Chorus] And the preacher said he was a good man And his brother said he was a good friend But the women in the two black veils didn’t bother to cry Bye bye, Bye bye Yeah they took turns and put a rose down Threw a handful of dirt into the deep ground He’s not the only one who had a secret to hide Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Another Day in Paradise

She calls out to the man on the street
"Sir, can you help me?
It's cold and I've nowhere to sleep
Is there somewhere you can tell me?"

He walks on, doesn't look back
He pretends he can't hear her
He starts to whistle as he crosses the street
She's embarrassed to be there

Oh, think twice, it's just another day for
For you and me in paradise
Oh, think twice, it's just another day
For you, you and me in paradise
Just think about it

She calls out to the man on the street
He can see she's been cryin'
She's got blisters on the soles of her feet
She can't walk but she's tryin'

Oh, just think twice, it's just another day
For you and me in paradise
Oh, yes think twice, it's just another day
For you, you and me in paradise
Just think about it, just think about it

Oh Lord, is there nothing more anybody can do?
Oh Lord, there must be something you can say

You can tell by the lines on her face
You can see that she's been there
Probably been moved on from every place
'Cause she didn't fit in there

Oh, yes think twice, it's just another day
For you and me in paradise
Oh, yes think twice, it's just another day
For you, you and me in paradise
Just think about it, just think about it

It's just another day
For you and me in paradise
It's just another day
For you and me in paradise

It's just another day
For you and me in paradise
It's just another day
For you and me in paradise

It's just another day
For you and me
It's another day
For you and me

It's another day
For you and me in paradise
In paradise
-Phil Collins <3

>:(

You want money now?! Ok cool, we'll just go and get some from the bank, O thats right we don't have any just sitting there. Don't keep asking to look after him and going on about how much you love spending time with him and then ask us for fucking money. But its fine, because other people are actually nice enough to help us out.

Music

I was making an all time favourites playlist and I couldn't cut it down anymore then this, in no particular order, this is really just for me to look back at later on.
Tell me Everything - Just Surrender
Time of you life - Green Day
Carry Out - Justin & Timbaland
Give it to me - Justin, Timbaland and Nelly F
Breakin' Dishes - Rihanna
If you Seek Amy - Britney
Up/Down - Jessica Mauboy
Crush Crush Crush - Paramore
Superman - Eminem
Boring - P!nk
Pass Out - Chris Brown
Most Girls - P!nk
Violent Pornography - System of a Down
Give in to Me - Michael Jackson
What We've Become - Just Surrender
Ignition (Remix - R Kelly
Starstrukk - 3OH!3
Holiday - Green Day
High Hopes in Velvet Ropes - The Cab
Take me on the Floor - The Veronicas
Minority - Green Day
Land of Confusion - Genesis
Ride Wit Me - Nelly
I need a Girl - P.Diddy ft Usher
'Cuz I Can - P!nk
Bad Influence - P!nk
Don't Stop the Music - Rihanna
Just lose it - Eminem
Clap Again - Akon
Say it Right - Nelly Furtado
Te Amo - Rihanna
My Love - Justin Timberlake
The Piano Song - A Cursive Memory
Bounce! - The Cab
Who is it - Michael Jackson
Love the Way you Lie - Eminem & Rihanna.

I've probably missed something, damn a few of those are embarrassing!Mostly from 2008/09, thats when I found so much music I love. The last year has had pretty crap music in my opinion. Haha that P.Diddy song is from when he was called Puff Daddy xD. More Rihanna and Pink then anything, raaandom! I think the Justin songs are probably my all time favourites tho, o and Just Surrender <3

'Dandelion'

I LOVE songs that are stories, they are probably my favourite songs to listen to over and over, this is one of my favourites, the song is really beautiful. But I'm not going to tell you who sings it otheriwse trust me, you would LAUGH.

'I saw him on a Friday outside some run down saloon
He was cryin over someone that he felt left much too soon
I said, hey boy don't you cry tonight
Let me take you out on this town
He looked at me and smiled as one last tear splashed off the ground
With half a wink he asked me what are you some kind of freak
I told him no, I guess I just feel your vibe is kinda deep
The moon hung over soho
And I counted 16 stars
I pointed at the brightest one and said now that one's ours

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

He just might be poison
But I took him to my roof top
I said are you afraid of heights,
He said no I am not
I said hey boy don't you lie to me, tell me everything you feel
We danced around in circles,
He said I think we found something real

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought he was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

Down in union square
I saw him walking all alone
I walked a little slower just so I'd remain unknown
He met someone on seventeenth and he knew her all too well
My little piece of heaven has a secret he won't tell
With half a smile he took her hand
And then they walked away
I realized I wouldn't see my boy after today

Fell in love with a dandelion
And he's all I ever had
At first he looked so sweet
But in the end he did so bad

He's a dandelion,
Up on a cliff above the sea
He's not exactly everything I thought that he might be
He's a dandelion
He looks like everything I need
I thought she was a flower
But I found out he's a weed

And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on
And I hold on hold on hold on
Hold on hold on hold on

'Can I be the only hope for you?'

Life is gooood! Ahh you have no idea how nice it is to just be lying on the couch playing around on my laptop. Absolute bliss after a loong day. Sometimes I don't get enough time to myself and I think it just drives me a bit nutty xD. But Heydn is entertained playing a game on his computer and Zay has finally gone to sleep so now its ME time. Zay is going through an incredibly needy phase, he wants attention ALL the time, so I don't get anything done around the house, but o well, I shouldn't complain, I love giving him lots of attention :D. Loving liveing in a house again :) a flat reaaally doesn't do it for me, I like lots of space and hate being cramped!Thinking I might have a house-warming/new years party , I should probably sort that out...
Anyway Ima go grab some chocolate and that shall equal a perfect night!

Mehh

I wrote a whole load of stuff that was probably much too honest and more deep then i've said to anyone in months. But I can't publish that. I need to hide, I just dont feel comfortable telling anyone anything meaningful anymore. I love my son, he is the light of my life. You don't need to know anything more about my life.

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/krisheartsmusic

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Everybody is pulling me in different directions but I don't know what the right way is.I don't even know if there is a right way or just two very very different paths I could take, both with their good and bad points. I know what I want but a lot of people don't think its right :( especially my mum and dad. And i'd always look to mum for advice but what do I do when her opinion is something I don't even believe in doing?

Someone told me to blog, but I don't really know where I'm going with this or what to say at all so maybe I will wait till my mind doesn't feel quite so messed up and jumbled. I am way to lost and confused. :S



"I'm in the dark and you're my light
I'm going blind and you're my sight
I feel alive
You set me free I hold you tight
You're in my heart and I'm the knife
I feel alive
You belong to me
Like I belong to you
I feel alive"

Tomorrow in a bottle

I waited for the day that
Together we can find another way back
But everything we've got at stake
Lets worry about today and put tomorrow in a bottle
If there's some way that we can take back
The wrong that we've created
We can change that
Don't turn your head the other way
You're gunna save today
But tomorrow in a bottle
Let's put tomorrow in a bottle



Tomorrows are scary at the moment. I know that probably doesn't make much sense but with such huge things going on at the moment each day is scarier then the previous. My whole life is scary at the moment, but also very very exciting. I wish I could just tell my friends why this is, but I can't, not yet.
But anyway, I don't want to think of tomorrow, or the day after (not just in this exact day, I mean in general) even though that would be a smart thing to do. I want to only think about today and live for the day. Yes I'm being ignorant, I don't care.

Gahh

Long time no post!
I have been waaaay to busy!
So many parts of life just feel like a chore at the moment, very few things are making me happy. I don't want to sound depressed, cos its not like I can't be happy, when I am with some people I am very very happy. But I hate being alone at all now. Which is reaaally wierd considering I used to LOVE having time to myself. Now I just feel lonely. Doesn't help that someone is angry at me when I didn't even do anything! I'm sick of being accused of things I didn't do.
Relationships are complicated, I dont just mean boyfriend/girlfriend relationships. I mean any in general. I'm really trying to work on my relationship with my mum, cos its not that great at the moment. There are friends who I need to make more of an effort with. Relationships with your boyfriend always need to develop, but I think the relationship I'm struggling with most at the moment is my relationship with God, its really not to great, which I hate but I don't know what to do!
Gah all I really want to do is cuddle up to Heydn, then life seems perfect and I don't have to worry about anything. But I can't do that All the time, I can't hide from my problems like I am. I really need to sort myself out.
I'm a mess to be honest and I don't even understand WHY, my thoughts are just all over the place and so are my feelings and I feel like I can't control anything anymore. Life is just one big blur half the time.
I can't stand being like this.

Rawwr

Do you know what REALLY pisses me off? People who tell me one thing, then tell someone else something different! If you don't like someone who I ask your opinion on, don't tell me what I want to hear and then go tell others you don't like them, just tell me the damn truth!! Fricking hell I am furious at the moment. Don't tell me something is a good idea then go tell others that its terrible and I shouldn't do it. Tell it to my face. I am SO sick of all the back-stabbing and lying.
Btw i am not just talking about Hagley friends this is about longer friends to, friends who I really trust.
Just tell me the truth, please thats all I ask.

'Sweet surprise I could get used to, unusual you'

So I am incredibly happy at the moment, well over the last few weeks. But 3 of my closest school friends just have me totally confused and some of them are lying, but I trust them all so how the hell am I meant to know what the truth is :S. All I know is that Heydn and I's relationship has been the talk of a few people and its really pissing me off. I hate being talked about, Its private and if I tell you something I don't expect you to go blabbing it to everyone! Your meant to be my friends. One person tells me one thing blaming it on someone else, then they blame it on someone etc. I only want friends I can trust. I absolutly hate being angry at people too, I just want everyone to be happy, so I wish they'd all just sort their shit out and leave Heydn and I ALONE.
Anyway, all I'll say is I never thought I'd find someone so flipping perfect for me, I havn't been this happy in a long time. I really can't believe it :).

'I don't know how it gets better then this'

Well, lots has been going on hehe I am SOO happy :). But peoples opinions are still bugging me. Half of my friends don't agree with a decision i've made, but I mean, if you can't support me then your obviously not really my friend are you?
Its my own business. I want to be with Heydn, nothing anybody says is going to change my mind.
So holidays have been really really good! Been socialising like every single day but thats been fun!! Heather was up :D Did some shopping and we hung with Heydn and Jaine one day hehe.
Annd next week i get to see some friends i havn't seen in ages! Cant wait! I miss Jo and Siobhan though!! Its sooo wierd them not being here! But they are having an amazing time. And Aimee is back tomorrow which is good yaay! Ima go meet her at the airport =)

'You lift my feet off the ground,
Spin me around,
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm fallin,
And I'm lost in your eyes,
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier'

'...it knocks you down...'

I'm so over my head and its crazy. What I want more then anything, and what I think is the right thing to do at the moment are two totally different things and I don't know what to do! If I decide what I really want, nobody, just about none of my friends would support my decision, I know it. But does that make it wrong? They arn't in my shoes, they don't know how I'm feeling. Then of corse I'm only part of the equation. What does he want? Its hard to understand, because he seems to be putting what he thinks is best for me first, but I really don't know if thats best for me arghh everything is just so confusing!
In short, do you follow your heart, or your mind?

Formal Formal Formal and stuff xD

Wow, stuff has been crazy! It was the formal on Saturday =) OMG it was SOOO much fun! Better then I expected! First off got ready, got my hair done at 12, but got there and shes like 'k so u want a wash and cut right' I'm like WHAT NOOOO, formal style! Eeek but she wasn't too busy so she curled my hair and stuff, i looved how it looked :D. Headed to Aimee's at 6, everybody there looked amazing! And then got a limo to Addington, it was really cool, got heaps of photos before the formal. Then everybody got breath tested except me! It was wierd, he said I could just go on through lol I must look very inocent xD. And yeah, partied all night lol. There was pretty good music, the dj was really nice, food was goood (cept ben got food poisoning cos he ate the fish when it got cold =() And yeah, mint az night!
Afterwards was AWSOME! Hehe to begin with I thought it was going to be crap cos I only knew Aimee and Kimbo but it turned out to be lots of fun, haha probably just cos I loosened up with a few drinks, i didn't have much though and didn't get wasted like a few people *cought Aimee cough*. But it was a lot of fun :D
There was one really crappy part of the night, a slow dance, lots of couples, I got upset and I didn't wanna draw attention so just carried on as usual, but it was hard. I thought I was over the whole situation but that point showed me I'm really really not. Which sucks, I want to be in total control of my heart and emotions but sometimes you can't be. I just want to say I'm over him, it doesn't mean anything. But I can't and it drives me mental!! So since then its all been a bit up and down, but thats life.
School isn't that great, pretty much my 2 best Hagley mates don't like hanging out together anymore so I'm smack bang in the middle. It really sux, each lunch i have to choose who I hang with and I just want to hang with both of them!! Its not fair on me but theres nothing I can do about it!
But other then that things are good! Cept lots of people go away in like just over a week? France people at mgs AND Cambodia people at Hagley, maths isn't going to be as fun without Aimee! But they are all going to have an incredible time which will be great :D
But yeah, thats whats going on xD

Partaaay

Wow, last night was AWSOME! Actually all of yesturday was great! Had photography first thing, wasn't too bad. Finished school at 10.30 =) But hung around cos Heydn had law next then at 12 we hung out, fried rice, the usual. Then crap it was suddenly 2.45 and I still needed to get home and to ric before 3.30 to meet Jo! Not gunna happen, but heydn and i bused to mine then to ric. I was very late =( And felt so bad but we hung and ate. Then off to Hannahs. Haha there weren't many people to begin with so Jo and I went for a crazy walk. We were SOOO hyper hehe running around like crazy xD. It must of seemed pretty dodg how Jo adn i kept disapearing. Then as more people came, started drinking. Wow, I thought I'd been drunk before but WOAHH nope, last night I ended up totally wasted. And now I feel like shit, but serves me right. I wasn't even planning on having more then 1 drink but haha 6 shots and a few glasses later, didn't work out that way. Apparently i am INCREDIBLY annoying drunk xD I giggle. A LOT. Hehehe. And daniel fell or something into my leg and it hurts like hell and il probably not be able to dance on monday =(. And i had gluten so as well as a headache this morning i felt sicker then i would have otherwise. But it was deff an Awsome night! So much fun :D Haha Georgia's bf put me in bed at like 1 so i was asleep hours before the others but i needed it lol. Anyway, good night all in all =)

Music music Music

I have my 5 star songs on my media player playing randomly and am annoyed that every single song that seems to be playing is how im feeling at the moment arghh. Do you find that? Like for example if someone had broken up with you then all that seems to play is sad break up songs? (not that thats whats happened xD)
'Where would we be now baby, if we'd found each other first?'

'Were you right, was I wrong? Were you weak was I strong? Yeah both of us broken, caught in a moment. We lived and we laughed and we hurt and we joked, Yeah. Were the planets all aligned when you looked into my eyes? And just like that, chemicals react, the chemicals react.'

'To you babe I can't stay away. Get up, go down then we go on around, its wrong but I can't stay, I can't stay away.'

3 freaking songs in a row.

Why?

Why do we still like and care about the people that hurt us? Everybody else is like No, they arn't worth it, forget about them! But you don't, you can't. Sometimes I wish you could, ughh.

Tell Me Lies

Cause I don't wanna know
If I kissed your lips for the last time
Please don't say if it's so
Tell my heart it's not goodbye
And do this one thing for me
Make up some stupid story tonight
it's alright, keep your truth and tell me lies


Ugh ugh ugh today was terrible, except for seeing the people I saw! Which ended up being A lot!
Anyways, don't really wanna babble on.