Worst Day

Today was one of the most terribilest terrible days in a long time.
Dont fucking sit right next to me, talking to someone else about something im 'not allowed to find out about' and say to my face im not allowed to know because it could hurt me or whatever, but then keep talking about it to someone else
TWICE IN TWO HOURS.
For fuck sake that pissed me off.
And who it was about didn't even mind telling me anyway, even though it may of hurt, just a little.
At least I have Emily, Caitlin & Fliss to go to if people are fucking me off.

I hope nobody reads this, I don't think anyone does anyway thank goodness, but whatever.

CANT WAIT TO LEAVE AND GO TO HAGLEY
Gosh im glad im leaving.

Goal: To stop spreading secrets, cos even though I didn't today, I know sometimes I do just like everyone else, but spreading private stuff hurts and if i stop, well thats one less person gossiping.

Hmm that was my vent.

Silly Silly Girl...

I did a VERY stupid thing at lunchtime...I know I shouldn't of...but I did, it was something I promised myself I would stop doing and i hadnt done it since our 1st Christian Focus day...
I think Julia knows what I did...well shes the only 1 who knows I used 2 do it...she knows what I'm like afterwards. Anyway I hope I didn't come across as 2 depressed at lunch today because of that. Hmm Blairs the only 1 who knows my blog so did i seem normal Blair? MEHH IM SO STUPID! Im very angry at myself, I don't like telling everyone 'yeah i'm fine!' because I hate lying so much...but I can't tell people, because 1. I don't want 2 tell, because they'll think im stupid or something and 2. if i tell anyone I'd come across as attention seeking, which i deffiantly don't want,even though i dont see how its attention seeking, but other people think that so WHATEVER... RAWWWR Im so angry.
Home alone...Dunno what to do...
I should phone Annika! I havnt talked to her in ages...
I should excercise...havn't been doing enough
I should do homework...but I really don't want to...
Lots of things I should do, but I dont want 2 do anything!
I want 2 sleep and not, not wake up...but just sleep until i can sort things out... get my head straight...But I can't. (if that made any sense i dont know!)

Hmm Yeahh Well thats all!